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I only have one laundry day left sometime next week, and I will be leaving this new home I have found in approximately two weeks and three days. Wow. I have learned a lot this summer, and since it is starting to come to a close, I decided that my last posts would be about some of what I learned. One of the things I learned is about homes. They have little to do with location and a lot to do with the people around me and the relationships I have with them. Even on week long trips I have seen familiar groups take on different dynamics, and I have met new people. I still miss some of these places, but if I went back alone, the only things I would be able to find are good memories. When I was going off to college my dad once told me, "Now you've made a bunch of good memories from high school, but maybe it's time to move on and make good memories in a new place."
It will be almost as hard to leave this place as it was to come. However, everyone here who will make it hard to leave will be leaving as well, leaving the place itself full of memories of the past but not much for the future. It will be time to rediscover the homes I left behind with a fresh perspective. My other option I guess is to find a new home, but after a visit from some friends and my family within the past two weeks, I am looking forward to the former. A familiar and comfortable home is not necessarily a bad thing, but it can easily trap me in a place where I am afraid to change and leave good things behind. However, without change, I slowly become unable to enjoy these good things because of the way I take them for granted.
I have always been and probably always will be afraid of change; however, after the few examples in my life of its importance, this fear is becoming more and more irrational. I am excited to return home because I think that I will have a new appreciation for all the things that I took for granted before. I might have a separate post about that, but we'll see.
I've thought about getting a tattoo for each home that I have known, like Something Corporate sings about in "I Woke Up in a Car", but I couldn't think of cool enough symbols or where to put them anyway. Oh well.
It will be almost as hard to leave this place as it was to come. However, everyone here who will make it hard to leave will be leaving as well, leaving the place itself full of memories of the past but not much for the future. It will be time to rediscover the homes I left behind with a fresh perspective. My other option I guess is to find a new home, but after a visit from some friends and my family within the past two weeks, I am looking forward to the former. A familiar and comfortable home is not necessarily a bad thing, but it can easily trap me in a place where I am afraid to change and leave good things behind. However, without change, I slowly become unable to enjoy these good things because of the way I take them for granted.
I have always been and probably always will be afraid of change; however, after the few examples in my life of its importance, this fear is becoming more and more irrational. I am excited to return home because I think that I will have a new appreciation for all the things that I took for granted before. I might have a separate post about that, but we'll see.
I've thought about getting a tattoo for each home that I have known, like Something Corporate sings about in "I Woke Up in a Car", but I couldn't think of cool enough symbols or where to put them anyway. Oh well.
posted by Tyler Brauhn | 4:07 PM
3 Comments:
How about instead.... you just get a giant tattoo of me... like right across your forehead... Yeah, that'd be sweet.
Dang, I kinda wanna listen to Something Corporate now.
yay tattoos!
What about just words from the song? Or something? I don't know. I was thinking about getting a tattoo for a long time, too. And I was thinking of getting words in Polish.
Lisa
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